my favourite moment in harry potter and the deathly hallows par1

i saw this last weeka

i'll write about the series in its entirety when i'm free enough.after all, the harry potter film series was something i viewed with cynicism at first,before becoming something i gradually loved. (i stopped reading the books after Book 5) perhaps because it's finally ended, its inevitable absence makes the heart grows fonder.

anyway,i thought that snape's flashback was the highlight of the film.alan rickman's sublime performance,for his unforgettable character,it was a great way to send him off.

and the following exchange was my favourite moment in my favourite scene of the entire film.

dumbledore:lily... after all this time?

snape:always.

somehow the exchange lingered in my mind.perhaps it was the context, or the performance, the haunting music, the way rickman enunciated his lines as snape, perhaps it was the previous shot of Snape holding a dead lily potter in his arms crying, perhaps it was a little bit of everything.perhaps i'm just a softie.

>>>to be continue

agonizing over a really difficult decision part 2

i'm back to complete what is left...
here it goes...i've received an offer to do bio-molecule in uitm.it was something really unanticipated as i've planned to do something else.so this kinda offer made me feel depressed and it definitely is because right before i apply for my degree,i've asked all the lecturers who teaches me and having listen to all sorts they said,i knew this course is somewhat tough...in which...to put it easy...i'm not suit to it.i'm not the one who likes to take the risks and gamble my future,easily said,i put it as my last choice...it never crossed in my mind that it would finally be something which i will do for my degree...again,i've to decide.let it go means i blew away the opportunity and to someone like me who always hangsuang and lahar others...and many other things which is unexplainable,refuse to do it means no more chances for me.i'm not a bright student and my family isn't rich and of course can't afford me to study at private universities.but accepting to do it would only see another struggle of me to keep the momentum...puhleazzzz la...you guys know me very well...so for now,i'm in the decision-making process and is contemplating over this matter and my hope is high so that i can eventually being out from this pain...i thought the worst part of of thinking about this programme is about my perception toward this course.i found it always negative,far out and never good and it is very intense to the length that doing this course,i can considered myself from the very beginning that i would have no jobs after graduating...
as there is about one month left...i just hope that for every and each choice made,it will give me more benefits than the drawbacks.

agonizing over a really difficult decision part 1

i really hate it what happened right now.it seems like i was drowning into something and couldn't figure the way out.gone were all my wonderful imaginations of me doing something i really feel good at.the situation right now means that whether i choose to do or not to do,it will destroy me for sure.the demolishing processes would take into some form of pressures at the beginning(if judging from what happened at the past)...and the pressure will always come and would keep pushing because i'm forcing to do something i should not and never want to do.to matter worse,what i will learn right afterwards is not much different from what i did throughout my diploma years...and all things which i would have to study would be very particular from now,a specific one...biochemistry,cytology...just to name a few...if it happened one day that i suddenly couldn't make all these thing as it was supposed to or precisely if i get crack(well because it had always happened when i do my diploma),it could have ripped me more than i imagined it would be.it is very hard and quite tough for me but still,i try to pull up some strings and put all my efforts as best as possible and not just waiting the miracle to happen but thus far unfortunately,it still goes to no avail.up till now,i still don't quite get the rational to pursue my degree in this field...i don't know why this time i tend to oppose over most of the things...maybe everything has getting insane and me as a person who have to confront with all this things have been affected in so many ways in which me myself at some point choose to refuse rather than to accept.actually,all in all,i just want to ensure that for what it's worth,it was worth all the while.it is more about to guarantee my life at the future...
***to be continue...

my very unpredictable life...

the past that i miss, the present that i'm embracing and the future that i'm scared of

there are some bits of my past
that haunted me till today
there are a bunch of present
waiting for me to face
there are a loads of future
that i can't even find where

my past, it was a happy yet painful memories
my past, it was something i want to change yet refused to do if i have the chance

my present is a struggle that i can't keep up with
my present as much it brings me hope for future, it keeps making me looking back at past

my future as much as it seems , cloudy and dark yet the key of a happy ending
my future, as much as i look forward to it, i wish it would come slowly

having blasts at bukit raja...ngan epul

don't think anyone really understands my love for Harry Potter.

yes, i'm 22 years old.

yes, i'm a working person already and is about to do my degree

yes, i'm not a child.

i know, i know.

but i grew up watching movies. i learnt English by watching movies...and by reading books

i grew to know that love between friends is just as important as love with our family.

i grew to understand the right things to do are not always the easiest.

i learnt about the power of will.

oh gosh.. banyak la sampai nak nangis kalau i write it all up! hehe!

so when i went to bukit raja with my best friend two days ago, i had an amazing opportunity...to watch HARRY POTTER'S LAST MOVIE!

you know what...its brilliant...i wonder if i could attend harry potter's last movie premiere in london!of course it would be even more awesome...its three main characters really captured my heart during that night...

my gorgeous pixie-haired emma watson...she never looked boring to me to watch her...i wish i could actually meet her one day...and please don't forget the ginger-haired boy rupert grint.he never fail to make me laugh with his weird acting...and what touched me the most was my bebeh...daniel radclife...he's still suit to do harry potter's role even he seemed to grew a bit older than before...

easily said...it was very awesome...ooo it really is...

now...i'm proud to say that i'm one hardcore Harry Potter fan...

sekian terima kasih...

p/s:i never finished watching all harry potter's film...the same goes to all harry potter's books...

tolongla be a wise muslim

Assalamualaikum, it's been a while since i wrote on this blog. I'm truly sorry as i didn't have anything to write. =)

In this entry i would like to share my perspective and point of view in what's happen to our country (Malaysia) today. I don't know much about what really happen. But what i knew is our country will have "Perhimpunan Haram" soon .I don't want to talk who is wrong and who is right. For me, it's just another propaganda from "Them".

What is really their intention by doing this? Is it time for them to make their move to the next level? Why only Malay / Muslim who are more enthusiastic than non-muslim? Why suddenly they talk about "Murtad" ? is that really the point to make this event? or just to ignite the muslim's anger towards the goverment? Why the goverment resolve this matter with another "Perhimpunan" ? why is it not "haram" ?. Who are the mastermind of this event? What cause him/her to do such thing? Is he/she doing this in the name of Islam/Allah?

There are so many questions that we can think of. To all my brothers,sisters,fathers,mothers in muslim, my advice to you :

If u know nothing about what happens,who,when,what or anything. Please, do not assume,accused or even suspect anything. Nowadays people just relying on "Media" without proper guide (Nas and Dalil).This is what "They" want. They spread "Fitnah" to achieve Destruction, Disunity, Fear, Mind Control, Brainwashing and all of this propaganda. Return to Quran and hadith, follow our beloved prophet Muhammad S.A.W guides and Sunnah and from there, find the best solution. Remember,No matter how we struggle to win based on this "Dajjal" system, we will still lose.