I could not thank epul enough for
Ugly Betty. The drama was so inspiring and I never even bored watching all the
same episodes during my free time. Whenever I have problems or if there was
something screwey , I would watch Ugly Betty and let myself drowned in Betty
Suarez World until all my problems went off and the situation get cooler. Just
so everyone knows, I have to deal with a little adversity earlier this year.
No, lots. I felt that my life was over and I have nothing left with me in life.
First thing first, the laptop which my mom bought me got stolen. I quit my
study before the culprits were even found. Then, as I start rebuilding my life,
I was taken by storm to know that both my MP4 and camera too were missing. I
started to think that Allah was unfair to me and so was my life.
From that moment on, I started to
neglect my responsibilities toward God and let the life controlled me because I
was very disappointed with what had happened. I worked at Pusat Pakaian
Hari-Hari to recollect all the money needed to buy the new laptop. I never told
my mother about everything that happened. I just give her the reason why I have
to quit. I was all alone and only God know what I felt at that moment. There
were just too many lies. To made matter worse, I hate working at that place and
could not get along really well with my colleagues. I managed to made some new
friends though but sadly they were not working there really long because their
semester break was over. I had a big quarrel with my mother when I decided to
come clean and told her about everything
I got some money at the end. Back
to Shah Alam, I asked for help from epul . I felt quite relief to be able to
get a new laptop but life still seemed uncertain and the peace was not Iong
before I was rocked by some horrible news that I missed the September intake of
Uitm. One problem goes here come the another. The situation was a bit different
this time because epul managed to landed me on a teaching job. I needed to teach student at the
tuition centre. Well, I began very poor but I were a quick study and not long
after that, my teaching went on very smooth. I got the opportunity to take part
in an event organized by Malaysian Franchise Association and from there, I
learned a lot of things that is very useful later. However I stopped after like
four months working there to pursue another option. The main reason I am
leaving because I was afraid of being
alone and there were some sort of dissatisfaction with the management at that
tuiton centre
Being in Kelantan, the situation
kind of hard. I have to live and act in a sleazy, scammy sort of way. People
were mostly not nice, unfriendly and sometimes so disrespectful. I exactly knew
this would happen, so I was not surprise. But then I was handed a job that is
being a teacher again. How could I be so lucky? Not so lucky if judged on how I
blended myself with all those student to make them understand my teaching. The
biggest thing ever happened was how I realized that I was merely a human and I
depended on Allah in everything I did. Allah would finalize on whether whatever
things I did would come out fruitful or just a futile attempt. I was so stupid
to ignore this from the start and even getting as far as questioning Allah
mysterious ways. I am fully regret for what I have done and I would do anything
to rectify things which have gone wrong. Now, I am living with no doubts and
the situation was peace again even not all
When I watched the Ugly Betty, I could
not agree enough that I was Betty-la-male. Not forgotton, the way she put her
life and people around her were just as same as I was. Fashion disaster, no
money parts, things not under control, all of sudden surprises etc. All the characters explained who I was and
myself and Betty have a lot in common. The way Betty work hard to put
everything together reminded me the moment I pulled myself hard enough to pass
the calculus paper. It was tense but I was able to cruise through. Betty had
eaten Ramen in order to cope with the expensive cost of living in Manhattan and there I was, I used
to eat Nasi Goreng with Ikan Patin Masal lemak or Telur Mata Kerbau to save
money. Me and Betty. We were the same person. No, we were twin. Come new year,
I just wanted to live with peace, be more Betty and always being grateful for
whatever Allah gave me and become a better person than I am now.