abih gak tulis akhirnyer

two more weeks to go before final exam starts. gosh. means I only have two more weeks to enjoy my campus life in here. what's next? going to debate tournaments (Arau open, pisza etc..), verangan and doing totally noting at home or looking for something that can give me money? second option sound so great and in fact that is thing I would always look up right after the final exam ended...best gler sial...when i'm at home, i just eat and sleep and...do stuff. tp lama2 pon boring gak...so if you happen to be in Kelantan, jom lepak and pekena something. mesti best giler...cuma problemnyer skang cuti lambat lagi. in that period of time...besides study...what am i going to do...pikir2.still have times. okay back to the present...me still thinking what I'm going to type...gotcha!!!...let me tell every and each of you sal satu mendalah yang baru je berlaku td. kaedahnyer pg td, me, puleh and fazli went to Temerloh to look for shoes, jeans etc. after a very lahar walking to shops and boutiques which is not sooo by distance to each other plus the options that was LAHAR, we then decided to go to Mentakab...sesampai je Mentakab, we were welcomed by heavy rain that last not long and a fact that Mentakab is not much difference than Temerloh...indeed Mentakab got it much worse to still keeping many old buildings in which for me...all of them actually don't have any means or historical something...so ngan nyesalnyer we all walk and walk and walk to nowhere that at last, we found something that can be proud of...it's a complete-sungei weng-liked boutique cam kt bb tu...tp sayangnyer it was just external appearances that what have been put inside is exactly not the same as what we have looked on the outside....mek sangat la marah...perjalanan diteruskan hinggalah mek sempat snap 1 seluar cantik ni...nanti mek upload gambar seluar tu...okay forget that coz the focus is on this one...actually I've met one guy in the middle of the way...ms jalan2...this guy is very sexy cam edison chen or to be more exact he's like jerry...mek suke sgt...ANDDDDDD suddenly my momentos with jerry back to back terflashed non-stop depan mata mek...mek nangis n found it very tired...hingus mek dah bercucuran...mek hide it from puleh and fazley and mek berjaya...
to be honest with you, my readers, Jerry is my boyfriend.my relationship with Jerry lately is getting stagnant. flat. mendatar. langsung tiada turun naik. no mess. no fuss. and no argument at all.

jadi, kami hidup aman bahagia?

tidak juga. kerana hati mek kata, mek tidak gembira. kerana pada masa yang sama, hubungan kami sudah mula hilang bunga-bunga cinta. sudah mula malap percik-percik asmaranya. tiada lagi bisik-bisik manja antara kami. kami sudah jarang ketawa bersama. i myself no longer enjoy Jerry as my partner. pendek kata, hubungan kami bukan setakat mendatar, tetapi turut hilang keintimannya.

tulis seorang pakar motivasi, Jackie Woods di dalam satu artikelnya, "a relationship that grows stagnant is in real trouble".

mula-mula, mek 'hade haku kesah?!'

however he actually did makes me think deeply.ni mek sempat highlight severe statements drp artikel tu

I started to realize, I'm growing tired and sick of sleeping next to a man who is sleeping a foot apart from me instead of working on his relationship with me. A man who often pretended to fall asleep everytime I seduced him with several sex tricks. A man who said no word, not even any single word when I wanted to discuss the issue. And guess what? He kept denying his problem and said i love uuuuu..tp mek rs jerry tkderla sampai gini

"Grow up la nok! It's time for you to move on" kata seorang sahabat, FD.

masih terngiang-ngiang di telinga mek suara nyaring mak hayamnya itu (keji ko! sempat carut mek kata mek bodoh kan!!).

membaca artikel Tim Connor sedikit sebanyak menguatkan semangat mek. i would like to quote some sentences from Tim Connor sekali lagi, "There are moments in life when love is easy and there are also difficult times when you have to reach deep inside yourself to love those that may not seem worthy. You can solve your problems, but it will take effort, patience and a lot of love if you want to succeed"

membina sesebuah hubungan memang mudah. kita boleh jatuh cinta dengan mudah. semudah ABC. kerana memang tabii manusia itu sendiri yang ingin menyayangi dan disayangi. but when it comes to maintenance, itu yang payah. mek rasa, mengekalkan momentum cinta dalam perhubungan adalah cabaran sebenar dunia cinta.

terfikir juga sekali sekala bagaimanalah Laila dan Majnun mengharungi rumah tangga mereka jika mereka dibenarkan bersama. atau kekalkah cinta sejati Rumi dan Juli andai hayat mereka masih dikandung badan. entah-entah, setelah 5 tahun bersama, pinggan mangkuk berterbangan menjadi senjata perang? hurm..

mek akhiri entry first mek ini dengan satu soalan untuk anda semua, is love all that matters, or is there more to have a successful relationships?

nota kaki bercagu : FD, mek memang ingin move on. seperti yang FD nasihatkan. move on, and grow up and go to the next level. tetapi mek tidak ingin bergerak sendiri. mek ingin melakukannya bersama dengan Jerry (well, itu yang mek rasa, so far).