Monday, February 28, 2011

Sometimes, being around people is tiring. there are times where we have to fake a smile, denies the truth and even laugh on something that is not funny at all. When we have nobody around us, we might feel left behind and alone but there are times when there are too many people around that we feel suffocated and wanted to run away. Once in awhile, being alone is the best. You don't have to consider others feeling. You don't have to mind your laugh. You can cry. You can be yourself.

But, the word 'be yourself' itself is a little confusing. I have been questioning myself for awhile. What is exactly 'being yourself' ? Each different word, act, laugh or cry? Even though it doesn't seem or sound like the 'normal' us, it still come from ourselves. So how come people can say that we are not being who we actually are?

Now, even my sentences sound weird.

To some people, they might feel that even their mother wouldn't truly understand who their sons/daughters truly are. Some parents even get fooled by their children. When loves blinds everything else, sometimes mothers and fathers can't see the reality of their children. Since I don't have the experience yet, I really can't clarify these statements.

Even as an individual, we ourselves can't understand our mind.

Since it always be like that. It would be wonderful if everyone doesn't judge people at once. Stop assuming and start understanding people.

I have always hated people who assume carelessly.

What you see doesn't mean that is the truth. Even the person agreed with a statement, doesn't mean his/her heart and mind accept it. What comes out from people mouth doesn't mean it is the answer.

So just like I say, stop assuming, take time. Then, that time, you might get to know the truth behind one's heart....

Thursday, February 17, 2011

i had cracked and again it was because of math.well,to give you a more clear picture,i've just taken my first MAT 238 test tonight .realizing i'm just sitting it for the first time,i think it is best to do some preparation and try to make an analysis on the usual pattern of questions that were asked by referring to the previous paper before the test is started.for this past few days,i've spent all my time in the library studying with the main purpose,to cover and mastering all the topics that i've learned before.i've to admit,math is not my field and certainly,it would be my last choice of everything.back to the story...this time,i've to study alone for quite some time because most of my friends are so busy with their study and their personal life to worry about.to add,my repeater's friend that used to study with me also got classes to attend to and tests to sit to.so,nothing could do about it.they could be full-time with me only a day before the kick its starts,we doing some revisions and solving some sort of questions altogether.then here the test goes tonight...the important part of my life here.it was so hard.i was surprised to see apart of the question is multi-application based question.luckily that i've been able to recall all the formulas needed for the test.so its kinda a little easier to find the all the answers directly.unfortunately i only got 1 hour and 30 minute to finish the tests.the time meanwhile beating and moving faster than i ever imagined it would be.i ended up the test by not being able to check whether my answers are correct or not...its kinda sad actually because i have gave away everything i had to this test....imagine 1 week-non-stop-studying this thing...i deserve to do better things...

p/s=math memang membuatkan manusia meroyan