not at the right state of mind

yes, i didn't really walk the talk :-(
i thought of managing myself into writing / jotting down few notes on this blog on daily basis...but it's just a mere coincidence that i didn't really have the guts to continue (and sustain..)


well...an "interesting" thing happened to me during diwali weekend.

as usual, for the past few months, i was so tied up with assignments,test,exams (i know it sounds boring...but well, yes...it's been very crazy nowadays, studying non stop...to the extend that i feel i'm speechless (and expressionless).

"he came back. yes, we didn't really have a proper relationship but i still do have feelings on him. But why it's like that famous cookie "skejap takde skejap ada?" whenever that he has problem then he'll come back to me? but this time i've also making my own vows, in which one of them is that i'll try my best to love and to be loved only by a women...hopefully it wasn't just a dream like what i did during my old days...i want it to be different....i want to change

apart from that, i got two more papers to be finished.both of them is hard and i knew it would be even more harder because my carry mark for both of that paper is not really good.so i gonna crackle my head studying all the notes and give whatever i have to excel...insya allah

grass is green..n flowers are rainbow..but human..we're dark as the black hole

LIFE IS NOT A GIVE...

what a long time to start writing again..i do need to do this more often..pretty much,i got the thing..but not the time..a new chapter of life begin lately.with a life full of kind of stupid drama.well.its what i planned for.to be stuck in a portal full with BACK-stabber and people who wont be easy on you.yes,there are people WHO love you and care but put them aside.the marginal number of FAKER are rapidly increasing lately... hey,face it..you hate me,deal with it.i wont let you step me just like that..i might be an easy guy around but sister believe me..im TOUGH-TO-handle..

i looked around to see how things going..oh no!!! alert i guess... People are being to honest about themselves lately.. i LOVE u..this pretty much what i like to say..i mean , i do like to fall in love since its fun..but to give it to a wrong person..tats crazy ryte? because i found that some people dont mind but others care too much.. to love another of your own kind wont make you gay,, please..please learn that as a lesson... its not bad to like people...ITS JUST LIKING THEmmmmmm...just don't go overboard...coz we r men n we r suppose to marry women

recently,,,i also found out that..its better to be good with a stranger..they will love you better..yes..i can confirm you that..i mean..dont pick a totally Fucking-stranger..its more like a well-build-image kinda guy..you know..the one who can be fren with... its a step to NEW friendship...

mental note.. : dont be A total LOSER by being hippo-critical about who u are., :)